Can It Be?

It's 50 degrees today! I'm wondering if spring might actually be here ... I'm still just so hesitant to think so. I think I better just enjoy it for the moment and plan on spring in the end of May!! I took the pictures above when I walked (slowly) today. Tiger on the porch, sunning herself is a "for sure" way to know it's above 50! I also have a few plants peeking out ... the last few years, we've had the same and even buds on shrubs and trees ... and then FREEZE and snow, killing it all. Wouldn't it be great if it just kept growing?

I'm still sick. This is one heck of a bug. I'm having so much trouble sleeping ... the congestion is horrible and it feels like fingernails scraping in my head, from my ears being so blocked. It's the worst when I lay down, plus with asthma, I have a really hard time breathing after a couple of hours. I keep getting up and wandering for at least an hour, coughing, feeling like I'm turning myself inside out, just to clear my lungs enough to try sleeping again. Inhalers aren't helping. Not to be morbid, but if I die any way other than by not being able to breathe, I'll be shocked! I can just see myself at some point getting pneumonia (for the umpteenth time) and slowly sufficating ... even if it's when I'm 102. I wish somebody would tell me something that would help when I get like this. It's a 50/50 shot - when I'm so congested, about 50% of the time I get pneumonia, just from getting crap in my lungs and not being able to cough it out. My regular doc and my allergist both say there's nothing else - just decongestants and inhalers. Decongestants barely touch it ... kind of like using a spoon to empty the ocean. I also use a humidifier/vaporizer, put Vicks in it. I don't know what else to do. So, I went outside to enjoy the weather and just walked really slowly because I'm so out of breath; I hate this. Feels good to bitch about it a little though!

On a positive note, Clay felt better today. He left the house, to go for a ride with Dad and a family friend - first time out of the house since last Sunday! Harrison still seems fine, which is AWESOME!

It's supposed to hit 60 on Tuesday. I am planning on feeling ok by then and planning to sit out on our patio, which is stone, so it soaks up the heat, to work. Sun will feel soooooooooo good!